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Blackjack addiction 1 – 1 DC

DC — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 02:19:36 +0000

I’ve decided to set short term goals, and for now I’m doing okay. I haven’t entered a casino since my last post here, and I haven’t played any online blackjack either… I feel good. I’m working hard, I’m doing good at work, and I’m focussed on the important stuff in life…

I also talked to a friend about my problem. She knew about my gambling, but was quite surprised to hear me say I had a problem. I’m a strong person in the real world, people think I’m not prone to these kind of things. Heck, I thought I wasn’t prone to these kind of things…

Admitting to myself that I am is an important step. I’m glad I made it.

I gave in and I feel terrible

DC — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 00:56:01 +0000

I just gave in. Lost $400 playing blackjack online. I can’t believe I cracked, and I was close to crying. At some points in a man’s life, he should get help. I’m getting a sick feeling here that I’m more of an addict than I thought I was, which is not the road I want to follow in life. I don’t mind being slightly hooked. I do mind when a man my age feels sick, close to crying, after not being able to keep a promise he made to himself.

Okay so I slipped up a little…

DC — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 00:35:13 +0000

I’ve been playing online, FOR FREE. I feel like the smallest little donkey idiot ever. I downloaded this trainer game, and have been hooked trying to make prime decisions only.

I’ve had moment in which I disagreed with the software consistently. Guess my game WASN’T perfect. I mean — BASIC STRATEGY SHOULD BE SIMPLE, no? :p

Meh — I need a hobby.