Archive for the ‘Addiction’ Category
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
Hi guys – thanks for the comments! Quite a few people have sent me positive reactions on me openly fighting my gambling addiction, and I think that’s great! I have good news for all of you — basicly I feel pretty okay, and I think I have things under control pretty well.
A few things:
- I am hitting a casino once every week, basicly to play poker, and never play over one hour of table games. I’m proud of that. I know this sounds like I still gamble 1 day out of seven, but basicly I gamble like an hour every week. As I’m a winning poker player, I’m actually in the plus for this month, and it’s steady! Same goes for December!
- I went to Las Vegas, and I didn’t gamble nearly as much as I did last time. I did one of those Las Vegas Exotic Car Rental things and rented myself an Aston Martin Vanquish and it was great. Drove to the grand canyon, drove to Hoover Dam. All the time I didn’t feel like gambling at all.
I’m happy. I really am. Please pray for me, I appreciate it a lot!
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Wednesday, December 17th, 2008
I’m pretty proud of myself for refraining from blackjack almost completely in the last couple weeks. Obviously the reason has to be sought in me dropping quite a lot of money in the past couple months — but still — the result is me playing less and fighting my gambling addiction, and that’s positive.
I’ll keep you posted of how I do NOT playing — I hope I can post here again in January telling you I’m still “clean”.
Pray for me, will you?
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Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
I’ve had a tough month of September on the blackjack tables and it’s pretty much due to not sticking to my “discipline”-promise. I started playing $1000 a hand again and even though I was up about 24 thousand that one night I ended up losing $30,000 total, which is a pretty sick amount for someone with my income… I’m losing in poker too…
I suppose I haven’t conquered my gambling addiction just yet. I only played 5 days, but the days I played — were hefty…
Hang in there with me.
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Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008
My blackjack results for the first few days of July are resembling those of the rest of June – steady in the plus thanks to finding a new 4-deck shoe-game which allows me to count much easier than the 6-deck game I had at my local casino. Also – I’ve been doing great on the addiction side of my gambling hobby. I’ve put myself on a tough schedule not playing for 5 days in a row at some points during a work week and getting just a set amount of hours during weekend play… Not only does it work for now but it also means I can’t keep track of my win/losses during a session that much as I am supposed to leave the blackjack table at a specific hour anyway…
I have allowed ONE exception — I’m allowed to keep playing if the deck is hot, but quit when it drops below my collercount. 
Wish me luck everyone!
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Saturday, April 26th, 2008
Have been on a cold streak and it’s hurting. I’ve gone back to gambling more than I was hoping to do, and I’m learning my lesson the hard way.
Down a couple grand for April and only had a couple winning sessions early in the month.
Planning a couple days outside the country, hope they don’t have casinos in Valencia.
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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
I haven’t been a good boy. Really — I haven’t. I was going to really cut back, yet this week I ended up in a casino twice playing blackjack. The good thing is I won twice, but that really doesn’t matter too much to me at the moment. I felt ok coming out, but once I stepped into my car I kinda felt sick and both times — realizing these wins are worth absolutely nothing when my real goal is seriously cutting back on my gambling.
Anyway, bankroll got helped out a little which puts me close to even for ‘08 — but I’m sticking to my plan to tune down the gambling… Bare with me… 
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Friday, March 28th, 2008
I’ve been doing pretty ok in March, but I did have a little slip-up at the casino when I flipped a coin about whether to take a trip to city A without a casino or city B with a casino. Faith landed on city B which to me was a green light to sit down at a blackjack table.
I did good until at a certain point I lost 13 hands in a row which obviously cripled me. I felt bad but as I’m doing great in the business side of my life the impact on my finances was close to none which is good considering some of the losses I sustained before…
Anyway, trying to get my act together, hickups along the way…
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Wednesday, March 19th, 2008
I’ve decided to set short term goals, and for now I’m doing okay. I haven’t entered a casino since my last post here, and I haven’t played any online blackjack either… I feel good. I’m working hard, I’m doing good at work, and I’m focussed on the important stuff in life…
I also talked to a friend about my problem. She knew about my gambling, but was quite surprised to hear me say I had a problem. I’m a strong person in the real world, people think I’m not prone to these kind of things. Heck, I thought I wasn’t prone to these kind of things…
Admitting to myself that I am is an important step. I’m glad I made it. 
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Thursday, March 13th, 2008
I feel better. I have been working hard in the past few days, and have earned back the money I blew off. I got my credit card statement and it hurt – I honestly feel like sobering up is the way to go here. I’m turning this blog into me fighting my gambling problem, I’m affraid.
Anyway, the thing is — I still have quite a lot of knowledge — who knows I’ll write some articles one day — the kind that explains the game, but also warns those who start playing it…
Blergh.
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Monday, March 10th, 2008
I just gave in. Lost $400 playing blackjack online. I can’t believe I cracked, and I was close to crying. At some points in a man’s life, he should get help. I’m getting a sick feeling here that I’m more of an addict than I thought I was, which is not the road I want to follow in life. I don’t mind being slightly hooked. I do mind when a man my age feels sick, close to crying, after not being able to keep a promise he made to himself.
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