I gave in and I feel terrible
I just gave in. Lost $400 playing blackjack online. I can’t believe I cracked, and I was close to crying. At some points in a man’s life, he should get help. I’m getting a sick feeling here that I’m more of an addict than I thought I was, which is not the road I want to follow in life. I don’t mind being slightly hooked. I do mind when a man my age feels sick, close to crying, after not being able to keep a promise he made to himself.
